now i understand....

i dont know either to listen for my hearts' word or my decission. because i made it not passing through my hearth but from what i listened through wind blow...

please go, please move away and please return back my heart.. easyly i can erase you from my mind without broke my heart. only 1 i regret about..why, u refuse to make it clear before it become worst. listen this such thing from others, not from the real you make me dissapointed, lucky i still under my control, but i still not sure either the story is true or not, i hope u will explain it, but ofcourse u will not.

please go now....

matured enough with my life now???

last night, i dont know what actually  happened, but i cry like baby crab. miss my mom so much, my mood just run off. i'm not ready to stand in this world by my own...do everything by my own, without mom beside.i thought i strong already, but i still thinking of mom..but until when, i dont know what time i will mature enough and never depending on mom.

nothing to worry if you believe what Allah settup for us...

i believe it, but like others said, u should put some effort to achieve it..its true since Allah suke kepada hamba yang berusaha, so conclusion, only berharap without any effort same like wait for the money fall down from the sky. may be, jodoh, rezeki, ajal itu sudah ditentukan, but if we put some effort, we may b can satisfy our need and target. Berusaha, bertawakkal and menerima dgn rasa syukur..after you work hard for getting something, finally u fail to grab it..you will accept without any regret. saat itu, terima la taqdir kerana sesengguh nye, hanya Allah yg lbh mengetahui.

semoga saya seorang yang xpernah berputus asa-berusaha dan mampu menerima ketentuan dr NYA, amin yarabbal alamin:)

silent for you...

dear my beloved friend,
i'm walking slowly, my intention doest want you to wake up or realize i'm standing beside you.
please keep moving to achive what u pursue to aspire, what you really excited for

just keep moving forward, i only want to kee quite, to let you choose your own way, to make you comfort making decision. but, i always pray for you, always happy for your success.

no matter what happened in the past, the moment we spent together as university's student totally different from now. u and me must learn how to adapt with new environment, must cope wit commitmment. it just ne wfor us. and let take some more time to make our self can afford it.

i like to see how you walk through the positions, to make sure you never give up, be strong and make a wise decision. may be u feel lost at some time, just return back to your initial mission, remember Allah and your parent also let me know what is about, my pleasure to comfort you dear.

good luck and may Allah bless buth of us...

khalid - his last day

only chocolate i prepared for him, spent two month with him make me feel sad to say good buy, thank for being a good friend during internship time..ofcourse i will pray for you and wish you will graduate on time as well as me..uhuksss...(start perasan)... o yeah, he pormise to post me some australia choc. lets we see either you just ' kencing' me or serious.. but, i know u always talk nonsense..

but, i still remember, u help me alot within gcad industrial, sometime you bully me, but i know at the same time u defend me..thank you...

bubye khalid, and good luck...

only believe your own self....

if you want to love someone, just love your self,
if you want to huge someone, its better for yourself,
when you miss someone, miss much your own self,

yes..all about your self....

you know why, when we think about our self much important than others, we will make a better decision,
its actually also help us to be a good muslim. make a good decision for our own self mean must be follow the rules of ahkam in holy qoran, only that is the correct way to love our own self...

time is limited now:(

time always running, and we must chase it..that was correct, if i can stop it from keep running, may be 7 years ago, i already estoppel it. so, my age just remain 17 years old. yest to many thing i want to do in 17 years old. the most important thing, i want to appreciate each minutes..may be i study harder to score the best in SPM.

dont blame me  as a person who are not going to thankful for what i got today. but may be a little regret on what happened in the past...its okay la...but now i realize my current age do not allow me to spend much more longer time to enjoy as before.

i must plan for future, and cope with commitment and must consider my responsibility. after finish my study, my life actually just begin, i need to start new phase in my life. i must improve everything...of course the most important thing is to be a pure muslim with follow the rule inside Holy Qoran.

i hope, berkat doa from my parent will lead me to the successful life di dunia and akhirat. insyallah:)

seandainye dia untuk saya...

i don't think every1 in this world deny to believe of loving some1. for me, who those try to say love is nothing only stick to their 'ego'. i believe it, i love that moment and i think it help me to build my self esteem. but, certain people define it in the wrong side, they practice the wrong way to show their love...i don't want to say here i'm good 1. since i always refuse my own self to falling in love until i meet him. i really not sure either i fall in love with im or not, but he actually derive me to achive my dream. thank for you, my dear friend.

eventhough we never declare our relationship, and only started as a friend and goes to best friend. we taking care each other and the most important we support and understand each other. it enough for me actually. i have my own reason why i never want to declare our relationship, this is because i dont want to fight againts my fate. i believe 'jodoh' is in god's hand. i dont know either you is my fate or not. so lets our relationship growing as a good friend.

i dont know what you think about our relationship, but for me you always make me happy and excited to work hard.. when i start to do something i will finish it successfully since i know you will always encourage me and stand by my side and also waiting to final result. i know, you will not read this, but i sure u understand me more than others. by this kind of relationship, we never fight each other, we just want each of us enjoy with our relationship and rely on Taqdir for further decision.

only what i can say here is THANK YOU, for everythings....

my precious time

2011 already, i think for 2010, not too much i post here, but its okay la since last year i really busy tried to study hard and score the best. and finally i got it....:) eventhough it was below than my target, but still achieve what i aspire for la..enough to make mom and abah smile on graduation day...insyallh it will be on this coming November.

now, I'm doing my internship with sime darby...here i learn alot, i think 5 months here will help me to achieve my objective. people here very nice to me..teach and trait me like senior junior. sometime advice. what i realize here i really develop my confident level and improve my communication skills. i also make my own self familiarize with the real work environment area, and how to create a good relationship with peers who are coming from different races and different experience background. yes, this condition help me to be more mature and get ready to workforce environment.

but, untill now i still cannot reach to final decision either to further my study and join industry to gain some experience. i think this is big important decision and i should think carefully since i realize it will effect my future. so, lets take some more time to  think about it carefully. but, of course my parent, sisters and future family will influence my decision for this time.

honestly, now i really miss my precious time during primary, high school and university time...i miss all parts the way i has growing up, the journey i pass through, and of course my friends that make my life colorful with happiness. for me it was a long journey to reach at my age now...but, its was actually the sources that help to build my characteristic now. yes, still alot  to be improve and change, insyallah i pray for allah to remind me always and kindly provide me Nur hidayah seperti yg tercatat inside surah An- nur.

like my mom said, your previous time is all memory you should keep it in your mind, there are our story which includes happy, sad, love, guilty, arrogant, scary and any other feeling. TQ mom, TQ abah, TQ jah~mell~erniq and TQ every1..becouse of them, i learn how to cope with challenges, obstacle to understand normal life.

see all next time...

~Nurul Farhana Mazlan~

i'm so happy

eventhoug sgt kecewa sbb xdpt celebrate his bufday on friday night, i still can smile, since he like alot about my present..it was so simple, but i prepared with all my heart....hu,hu so sweet...i cant describe his face during i talk to him and cancel our date..so sad actually, but, i cant escape my own self to going back puchong since my grand ma n pa was comming here....he is so special, but the most i should not ignore is my lovely granny..but's it was okey la..eventhough my planning was ruin and i cannot deliver him my favourite song which i had burnd into nice cd- ...whatever la..asalkan, i make something special to my best friend....so, i think i already apreciate him alot....chak!!!!!!

waiting for taklimat latihan industri

hurm, i come back to say something about my promise yesterday...hu,hu..owh, what my old friend said at his blog is about couple more than 5 years....his oppinion said that it was a wasting thinh we do in our live...but for me the answer is depends on our self la...why? every body will comeout with their answer....variety answer...:)

waiting for my class...

ni baru pas mam kueh lepat pisang n fish ball..sgt la sedap..alhamdulillah...i dont want to talk about kueh2 yg besh ini...tp nk kongsi a story about my old friend...tapi...skunk x bley...bb br je sedar....ada lg 5 minutes class da nk start..if cerita kt cni...masuk lmbat la jawab nye....tadaaaaaa......

welcome to CIMUK into my life....

hahaa..i sure...you guys...tertanya...who is cimuk...cimuk is so cute,...and if all my phiranes look at cimuk...they will said"owh...so sweet like little frogy".."frogy" my nickname..among phiranes... so funny to remember why the call me frogy,,,to comeout with such nick name is not easy tau...???? hak2...so, for my friends...x sabar nk introduce cimuk kt korang...all of you will like my cimuk so much....<3

hu,hu...my new smester...with a new spiritual...

love to say here...this sem is not same like before..i dont really face with problem of subject registration...its really good..learn from experience bfore...and i prepared it early...so, now i just relax while looking at all kekalutan my friends..hu,hu....so i can smile nicely.....
but..but...n but...something that i dont like about my time table for this sem is class at 12.30-1.30...and only gap for half an hour to proceed for next class...make me so rush and rush...to pray and go for lunch...so sad...and until now, i'm thinking n thinkig....what should i do...and find a good alternative...to complete all my responsibility as muslim...hu,hu...
may b..ini lah ujian Allah ke atas keimanan sy....
and thankful also, all my lecturers for this sem...look nice and easy to cooperate...but...i dont know yet....what will b happen in future...
yeah about my classmates,,,,zira, nisak shida n akma..they like to join another tutorial group...nk ubah angin kt nye...but, it okey...becouse..tina plan to join my group...furthermore..tma, afiq and other still with me in G's group...
final sem with them, so i want to make create a good relationship..and finally have a nice memory with them...
like usual all boys in G's group so funny...they mk us not bored..and sometime..lecturers also enjoy with them....and for me...i just want to keep all up...this is my mission for this sem..and for my cimuk...please support me dear, couse..i need you to stand by my side and share everythings......so, what should i say here after all about...tQ Allah, tq mty love parents, TQ my cimuk and my love adek2....love you all so much,,,

saya dan dia

bagi saya cinta saya terhadapnya tidak akan melebihi cinta saya terhadap Allah
sayang saya terhadap nya tidak mampu menandingi sayang saya terhadap Allah
kasih, dan sayang saya pada nya,,,,hanya lah kerana Allah...
pelihara la saya ya Allah...dr melakukan maksiat, tidak kira kecil atau besar....
panjang kan la umur saya, untuk memberi saya peluang ke Rumah mu di Makkah ya Allah....
berikan saya keberkatan mu...
lindungi saya di bwh hidayahah mu....
Amin ya rabbal alamin,....

hidup saya sepanjang smester break!~~

saya x penah buhsan duk uma..terasa warm ada mama, abah n erniq..melly n jah syebuk study...so, tinggal lah nrul n erniq je...ni la saat paling best..otak bley rehat serehatnya dr assgnment...but, i realize sumthing...i waste my time..for something yg baek...hurm, i dont know why...sesal nye saya.....sepatut nye sy byk kan membaca alquran...tapi, sy enjoy senjoynye plak d umah ini....astaghfirullah halazim.....

love to say here....

xde ape yg nk dbanggaka dlu skunk n slama2 nye..memikirkan diri yg masih byk kekurangan disisi Allah yg maha AL-rahman n AL-rahim....tapi doa dan harapan terlalu tinggi untuk menggapai sebuah kejayaan...xde niat untuk berbangga, kerana..setiap kurnian dan kelebihan adalah dpinjam dr Nya...namun kejayaan yg diimpi untuk membalas penat lelah mama n abh, melaksanakan tangunggjawab the first in my family..and menegakkan syiar islam d bumi Allah ini..juga membuktikan..saya la ank melayu yg berwawasan...punya jati diri dan nilai moral yg tinggi.....terinagt zaman belajar..dr mengenal ayat alquran..ustazah nye arwah nenek sendiri..pernah kene penampar, ekoran mls mengaji...then, dikuti dunia abc, and 123..syonok nye time tu, time saat math is dificult subject until i know how to solve all problem in mathematic..time i dont like science...but, c.rose come into my life...and during mama syebuk memahamkan sy tentang tatabhasa ibunda...sehingga sampai la hidup berkawan d maahad muhammadi..i learn how to b independent there, by knowledge n experience at maahad, i survive well during at perlis and SHAH alam..i hope...after this i will further develope to be sucessfull woman..fi dunia wal akhirah....amin ya rabbal alamin....

enough for this...

sesungguh nya..bersyukur and kagum tersangat ke hadrat Allah yg mengurnia kan setiap hambanya perasaan yg berbeza..malah terlalu halus nye...dan setiap manusia itu juga akan ada bersamnya nafsu yang cuba mengawal setiap emosi n keinginan nye..mengawal nafsu bukan lah suatu yg senag ..malah ianya terlalu sukar...dan setiap manusia itu perlulah blajar sepanjang hidupnya mengawal nafsu nye, agar emosi dan pemkiranye akn berlandaskan rationality...dan percaya lah..kita mampu mengawalnye jika, keyakinan, keimanan kita terhadap Allah, adala mengatasi segala2 yg laen...dan keyakinan ini la membawa kita terhadap pasrah dgn ketentuan QADA' n QADAR...juga trus berusaha untuk mendapat keredhaan hidup disisi Allah....

hate this time...

i feel sorry to my self..how come i have a vry bad idea..uhuks...so sad..can i forget all story which i create it bfore...and the one side is dont know nothing..hu,hu..i can't accept it...how cruel u are...so cruel..make my self always think and thinking of you...but, u so harmless..but all this is not ur fault... all is mine..i cannot control my own self...but, i hate what i have done before..give me time to repaire it..i promise..it will gonna b normal back...let i try to move the spiritual to the true way...pape pun..third party who read it will not understand what exactly happened..between me and you..but, my own self..deeply understand..how hurt it was...ALLAh aje yg TAu.....

sakitnye bile fkrkan tentang itu....

xtau nk cakap ape da...yg penting terlalu skt bile fkrkn sgale2 tntg itu,,,,so, alternative nye, nrul da dlate no phone awak...and semua msg awak...everytime awak msg, nrul trus delate,,bab, xnk dpt contact awk nnti...xtau nape..nrul, sakit sgt dgn awk,,,bukan bb emotional...tp, awak uat nrul memendam rasa...i dont want to think about u anymore...let's it gone forever...i will not let it to come accross my life....bubye....i wish u u all the best....